Tuesday, December 22, 2009
"Do not fear your weakness, for it is the stage on which My Power and Glory perform most brilliantly. As you persevere along the path I have prepared for you, depending on My strength to sustain you, expect to see miracles-and you will. Miracles are not always visible to the naked eye, but those who live by faith can see them clearly. Living by faith, rather than sight, enables you to see My Glory."
After the van was totaled on Sunday, our biggest concern has been something to rent that would be big enough to get us on our way to spend the holidays with our family. We really needed a miracle. And a miracle did happen...Steve searched the state and could find NOTHING large enough to fit our family for this trip. A desperate email to a company south of Denver turned out to be the miracle. Just Monday they had received a vehicle that would work great for this trip. And since they were not expecting to receive this vehicle, it had not been rented out...of course, I know that is because God sent it just for us.
So we are getting to go and looking forward to this special time that we have planned on for over two years.
I look forward to catching up with you all when we are home.
Have a beautiful and blessed Christmas.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Steve and Aiden took the van into town to get it cleaned for our trip.Steve called me and sounded shocked. He said "You are not going to believe this, but the car wash just totaled our van." I couldn't believe him at first. He and Aiden were eating in the car wash cafe when the manager came to their table and asked if he owned a green van. Steve said yes, and the manager told him there had been a major accident and to come with him.
The guy driving it out of the car wash somehow said the accelerator "got stuck" (NOT). Out of control, he hit a Suzuki SUV (it looked ruined as well), before whipping our van around and running over a very large street light...PULLED THE WHOLE THING OUT OF THE GROUND! If you look you can see the street lamp under the front part of the car and the back wheel was finally stopped by the concrete light post block that was literally pulled out of the ground!Yes, I'm thankful that no one was hurt, but Steve and I are in shock and have no idea how we will replace our van. The insurance will only give us what it is worth...not what it will cost to buy another one.
We are praying that we can rent a van and still get to my family's house when we were planning. I know many of you are praying for us and I am grateful for this.
Do you know what my oldest son, Jace, who is 20, said..."Mom, something major always happens when ya'll bring another child home."
"Lord, in all things we thank you....even this."
Saturday, December 19, 2009
She recently did a post called Galations 6:1 parenting and it was just what I was needing! I have two little boys who are really testing me right now and most days I feel as if I am somehow failing as their mother. One of these little sons is honestly one of the "biggest" personalities I have ever seen and most days start with battles and do not end until this little guy is asleep. Then on the cute side, every morning he will climb up in my bed before I get up to give me a kiss. He just does everything BIG, including sinning.
Galatians 6:1 "Dear brothers and sisters, if another Christian is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself."
My ESV Bible says "Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted."
Verses 2-4 have some wonderful advice also, but I have to stop right now at this verse.
There is a truth here that I have also seen...my children's sin does often place a temptation in my heart to also sin. It's not "their" fault...it's just that there is a spiritual warning here to heed. Their sin/transgression is a time where I need to be aware of my own heart, and what I might be tempted by...am I tempted to be impatient, rude, respond in anger? I love that a very important verse is just above this Galatians 6:1 verse...Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the
Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires."
"Father God, please show me my own sins before I respond to my child. Holy Spirit, I ask for your help. Help me to restore my children with gentleness, humility and love. Help me to help them back onto the right path"
Thursday, December 17, 2009
and, I am so enjoying my first real week home with my new son. We have been lazying around; just hangin' out...no school, just playing, reading and sitting around holding Keshawn.
And today, I am so grateful that Keshawn is home and that we are all together. I love the sweet baby-ness of Keshawn and the love my other children are already showering on their new brother! They adore him.
What can I say...I'm in love with baby love!!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
I'm taking Corbin to the dr. later this morning to see how he is doing and baby Keshawn will get his first check up.
My oven is broke and that is frustrating since so many meals I make cook in the oven. Also I was wanting to make Christmas goodies before next week. I am praying they can fix it soon.
Cute pictures of daddy with his new son! Aren't they cute!
Friday, December 11, 2009
I really didn't see that much of Ethiopia, however, what I saw was so pretty and the people are very nice. It was much cooler than I expected and it was the dry season.
I stayed at the New Flower Guest House and they were wonderful. They were so very helpful and I would stay there again without a second thought. There were other families staying there and it was so nice to meet these adoptive families.
Keshawn is starting his days at 4:00 am...hopefully we can began to stretch that out over the next few days. Corbin is feeling better every day and his chest is sounding clearer today.
I am still SOOO tired...I have trouble thinking clearly. I am so glad to be here with my family and we are taking it really slow and easy right now. Two children were still sick with the flu yesterday. I'm sure it will take a few more days for us to begin to feel normal.
Have a blessed Friday!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
It is nice to be back home again and I have been loving on...
these little toes...
and these little fingers....
and those beautiful eyes and sweet cheeks...
and all this yummy babyness since we got home.
How wonderful it felt to put Keshawn in the sling and watch him drift of to sleep!
Every one here at home is feeling better. Steve went back to work this morning.
Thank you sweet friends again, for your prayers and sweet words of encouragement! I was thinking how thankful I was that Corbin didn't get that sick till I was home.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Again, my emotions are kind of all over the place...we are in a beautiful hospital and the staff is just wonderful...they all love on Corbin and I. I have thanked the LORD often today, especially having just been in a 3rd world country where this care would not be available. I can just step outside my room to get good, clean water, and healthy drinks to rehydrate my son. I'm thankful for the medicine that is available to help Corbin that would not be available in an African country. I'm thankful for the oxygen that we can give him to leason the stress on his heart and brain. I'm thankful that Corbin is doing better and that the storm outside is not so bad that my husband couldn't come see us for a second today. They have a dvd player here and I am so thankful for the movies that Steve brought for us....thank you LORD for VeggieTales.
I am missing my new son, Keshawn. I looked at his pictures on the computer and wanted to cry. I am praying that he isn't looking around for me and feeling more stress as he is already trying to take in so many new things and people. I wanted to change places with Steve and go home to be with Keshawn and the others when he came today, but Corbin really wants me here with him and I know that this is probably best to help him get better quicker. All of them, except Aiden and Joeliana have had the flu. Landon is really hurting and if I could just be there I could figure out how to help him (not that Steve isn't doing a wonderful job...it's just a "mommy thing"). I am really tired, I guess from jet lag, sickness, and being awake alot to help Corbin...sometimes I feel like I'm thinking through a fog.
And, here is the selfish confession...I had it all planned (I know, you are chuckling because you have probably had "plans" also). Here was my perfect plan...come home with my new son and settle in to be pampered like a new mother should be. I know that I didn't "give birth", yet I still believe that adoptive families do give birth in a different way. Steve and I have always really set aside the time when a new one comes home to settle in and get to know each other. We especially feel this is important in adoption...our child is dealing with so many new people, places, and things. Steve is wonderful about pampering me so that I can "mother" our newest child and help the other children get to know their new sibling. So my perfect plan sort of evaporated before my eyes...
and, I'm back to my emotions being all over the place...thankful, grateful, tired, wishing, sad, and all these bring me right to the LORD, by Father...
"Thank you Father God for the gift of children, the ministry of motherhood, the love in my heart for them; the love of my husband as he cared for them and me. I'm sorry that I'm selfish and wanting things to go as I "plan"; I miss Keshawn and yet, am so happy to hear from home that he is well, is laughing at them and getting to know his new family...I just wish I was there Father God..."
A little voice in a hospital bed behind me just said "Mommy, please come sit with me." So I go to my son and we are going to enjoy an evening of George in the Jungle and pray we can go home tomorrow.
Thank you all for your prayers and sweet comments...I am SO THANKFUL FOR YOU ALL!
Monday, December 7, 2009
Corban began to get sick with asthma symptoms yesterday. We started all of our normal meds to get it under control. But by last night at 11:00 p.m., we knew we had to go to the hospital. Just an hour before Kalyn started throwing up and quickly came down with the stomach flu. We called a friend who came over and we headed to the hospital. Corbans oxygen was barely holding 80 and he was admitted immediately. An ex-ray showed that he also has pnemonia. The hospital wouldn't let Keshawn stay because of the swine flu, so I left with him and came home. Kalyn was sick all night and I was up with her, and now Steve has called and he is sick and Caresse is helping take care of all the kids. So I am off to the hospital to stay with Corban and Steve has to come home. I hate all of this! And now I will have to be away from Keshawn.
Sorry, just raw, tired emotions right now. I know so many of you are praying for us and I am so grateful. Thank you so much. We will keep you all updated.