Fear by Kalyn

Kalyn called last night and one of her brand new teeth had broken off. Of course, this isn't suppose to happen! So we are praying that we can find someone down there in South Texas to fix it before they need to enter Mx. 
Kalyn wrote me this morning and I want to share what my little girl is going through.




"Hey mama,

I started this a few days before I left home. I finished it last Sunday, and when I was writing it I thought, 'there is no way that this poem expresses my feelings.' I was writing it as if I was saying it but like it didn't mean that much to me personally. And then tonight when you called me and I got off the phone for a few minutes I felt every emotion that I describe in this poem. It's called Trust.

Trust

Why should I have cause to fear?

Is not the Father of the Universe here?

Does He not walk beside me?

Is it not by His son’s blood that I am free?

Then why is my spirit faint?

And why does my strength wan?

Dark clouds gather

Waiting to break loose and my dreams to shatter

I am cloaked with doubt and fear

And my vision is no longer clear

I feel lost and alone

No material thing I own

Can help me or give me bravery

All I want to do is flee

I close my eyes as tears fall

Is this the road to which I was called?

Or have I strayed from the way?

And now in silent misery I must lay?

No, lies!

Life is always filled with ifs and why’s

What was done wrong and done right

What was hidden in darkness and what was brought to light

So many questions about the past

And if in the future our souls will last

Dare I move forward on this road?

With fear and doubt as my load?

How can I trust that He will provide?

And that from my call He will not hide?

Trust, a single word, a single action

That can cause so much hesitation

Dare I trust?

I know that to truly live I must

There is only one reason why

I would walk this road were so thickly my devils fly

For You

And that is unshakably true

The first step is taken

Leaving all I have been

My trust has been placed

And I know that my trust shall not go to waste

I pull the cool air deep inside me

And face my destiny

I feel a new presence on the wind

That brings my hesitation to an end

Fear in my heart yet remains

And I know there will be days when it pours and rains

But I choose You to follow

Through thick and thin ups and lows

Hold me close, wrap me in Your arms

Engulf me with who You are

The dark clouds gather

And I open my arms to You in surrender.

I love you mom,
Goodnight,
Kalyn"

We all face times where we stand before fear, but we have a choice in our response to it. 

Please be praying for Kalyn and for us. 

Jace, Kalyn and Keshawn at the lake