Wednesday, March 2, 2011

I Tried, But I Couldn’t Help Myself...

Continuing from our “Bao Xinu” Auction and the adventure to our children in China...
As I mentioned yesterday, we found our that “Cherry" had been apart of the 1st Hope Journey and had not found her forever family.  This was her second year and probably last chance to find her forever family.  I kept thinking about her and how beautiful I thought she was.  I prayed for her every day and did something “dangerous”.  I couldn’t help myself.  Knowing that it would have to be the will of the LORD for anything to happen, I asked to look at her file.  I was told that, in part, because of our advocating for her, several families where looking into her file.  However, the agency would keep us in mind, if no family requested to adopt her.  
I continued to tell others about this little beauty in China, and pray that her family would find her.  I looked at her picture so many times.  I really couldn’t help myself.  Even knowing that we could not be an option for her, I asked every few weeks if anyone was looking at her file.  Several families were and I rejoiced that she was going to find her family.  After several months, it became apparent that many families had looked at this little darling’s file, yet, her family had not found her.  I asked why and found out further that she was not able to speak very well because of her cleft lip/cleft palette.  A family had hoped to adopt her at the first Hope Journey, and had gone to China to meet her, but then things had not worked out.  So this poor little girl, who had already been to  two Hope Journey’s, and had one family hoping to adopt her but not able to, was now “on the list” for possibly the last time searching for her family.   


I continued to “watch” and pray, when right before Thanksgiving 2010 we were asked if we were still interested in looking at “Cherry’s” file.  Here was the moment...
The moment I wasn’t sure what to do with.  I was pretty sure I was already in love with her and probably couldn’t stand looking further into her file if we were not financially able to adopt her.  I had told Steve about “Cherry”, but he had also been clear that, though he would love to bring home a son AND a daughter, we just didn’t have the money.  I asked him if we could look at her file and I that I just felt that the LORD had saved her for us.  He told me that it ($) had to be under “x” amount of money to add a 2nd child, and even then, we were completely stepping out again in faith asking the LORD to provide.  


Well, that was all I needed!!!!!
We requested her file and found out things that just made us fall in love with her more!!!!  She was hoping to be adopted by a “lovely” family that was active and she loved feeling beautiful and LOVED to wear beautiful dresses.  Did you see the word “beautiful”?  That will become even more important and remember the song from yesterday that the LORD showed me when I began to pray for her...”Come Home, Beautiful”.  
So, even as I was thinking and prayer for our new son, Asher; and trying to learn a few Chinese phrases, I was also thinking...could it be possible that there would be TWO? 

10 comments:

  1. I understand this post from a very personal and similar experience I/we had. MANY BLESSINGS! The Lord WILL provide :)

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  2. Hi Shonni, I wasn't sure if I posted already, so here is it again..

    your post reminds me of Linny's recently, she shared that the desires of our hearts are from Him.

    I am currently stepping out on faith on this desire in my heart, being sure that it is from Him, but at the same time, hoping it is not my own. Only time will tell if it is from Him, if it is from Him, He will cause it to pass... reminds me of Hudson Taylor's quote: "God's work done in God's way, will never lack God's supply"

    I was thinking of the beautiful dresses that you made and shared on your blog, Cherry would love wearing them and being in your family :) Will pray that He will show you clearly what to do. :)

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  3. So fun to read the story to your two sweethearts!

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  4. This is such a poignant story--she touches my heart because she reminds me of my own little Korean beauty so many years ago.

    Have you set up a PayPal account? Are you looking for things to sell for your auction?

    I'll check back here for your answers. Thanks

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  5. Shonni,

    I've been reading your blog for quite awhile now. LOVE your big, beautiful family!
    I have watched for so long to see if Cherry would find a family! She is so beautiful. She would be or WILL be (I'm think I'm reading that you've said yes to her) a beautiful addition to your home.
    We adopted an older CL/CP girl last year and even the chinese couldn't understand her. Although at times it is very frustrating and always a lot of work (for her and us)....she has made a lot of progress and is the happiest girl in the world.
    I can't wait to see Cherry in your family and watch her grow.

    Much love and many blessings,
    Stacy

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  6. Hi Shonni
    I have just read these last 3 posts on your latest adoption journey -it is wonderful how you are allowing the Lord to guide you through all of this!
    Praying for you & your family as you follow His leading!
    Blessings
    Renata:)

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  7. Love how the Lord leads us in ways that make no earthly sense, but definitely make sense to GOD!!!!!

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  8. I don't know WHERE I've been, but I've missed your last SEVERAL posts! I just caught up and can't wait for the rest of the story. Boy, did I need some encouragement and this is exactly the kind of story I needed!! Post again, post again!!

    XOXO

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