Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Looking to Him

IMG_4114.jpg_effected.jpg"Father God, give me a heart that looks to You for what I need today, whether it is wisdom, comfort, joy, or perseverance...I seek You and ask that I would glorify you today!"
It was a tough morning.  My little daughter that "falls apart" did and I needed to hold her and try to calm down the out of control emotions within her for over an hour.  It makes me hurt for her...for the needs that where unmet those 1st months of her life, the cries that where not answered, the desires that all babies have to be held, loved, cuddled, nurtured were left unmet...
I pray and ask the LORD what to do to help her...what I hear is what He has done for me...draw her near and be her peace till she can receive it. (Eph. 2:13-17).  So, our little world stops for a time; no school, no laundry, I just sit holding her rigged body and pray for healing and help.  After it is over, she if fine and helpful and happy again.  But those moments when things become to much for her remind me of the times when things are to much for me and I want to remember to look up and know HE is holding me, and I am not alone.
On a happy...I got both Alia and Joeliana's hair done the last two days.  Yea, that always makes me feel good.  I did something fun with Alia's that I will show you later.  Till then, LOOK UP...Our Heavenly Father is much closer that we think!


  1. Shonni,
    Thanks for sharing about your sweet daughter. So often I don't write about the difficult parts of our journey and walk with our children. I have one that sounds so much the same and the last couple of weeks have been so difficult for this little one. So many hours of the world around us stopping as mommy has held this little one through the tears, anger, hurt and grief that has racked their little body. How I pray for comfort and healing knowing that so much happened in those months of loneliness before a family. I appreciate your honestly and your heart.
    Blessings to you

  2. I understand your cry out for her. Praying with you!!!

    Hugs and love!

  3. MAN! Did I need that! Thank you! Praying for you!

  4. Thank you! The reminder....my day was basically the same.....tough....needing healing for my children, and strength for me to keep remembering what is most important. Not always easy, but will keep looking to HIM!!!!!!

  5. Beautiful and I needed to read this tonight. Thanks!
    Much love!

  6. Sweet and encouraging post, Shonni! I am learning to crawl out of my own bed earlier in the mornings and crawl into the bed of my little one who falls apart easily for a few minutes of cuddling before we start the day. It seems to make things go better. I have to sneak though...the others would be jealous :) Blessings, Jennifer


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