Thursday, April 30, 2009

Grateful/Thankful Thursday

Linny wrote a beautiful post on being thankful and grateful. She wrote "be content before any gifts are given; breathing "thank you" regardless of what the circumstances; saying "hallelujah" with no guarantee of a blessing; being confident to accept whatever God brings.....Gratefulness is our hearts before the blessing."

For me, part of being grateful is to REMEMBER...
Psalm 143:5 says "I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands."
I read Psalm 145:10 this morning..."All your works shall give thanks to you, O LORD, and all your saints shall bless you!"... and I thought of this plant that I saw yesterday, just beginning to show new life. And I thought how All His Works give thanks to Him...why? Because his works are full of life, truth, beauty...and we, his people, bless Him!!! Its about Who He is...and meditating on that alone makes me feel grateful, regardless of What I am going through.
I am grateful to live today to bless His name and see the work of His hands around me.
A few of those "works" are being naughty, so I am gratefully going to put them down for nap!
Visit Linny if you can and read her grateful notes.

Fun Giveaway!!!

Kendra at Sugarplum Boutique is giving away $30 of merchandise! Visit her to find out all the fun!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

We Did School - I Promise!

I was having a rough morning with the little one's...and as I was hanging the clothes outside (oh, blessed quiet of nature to sooth my soul), I decided that we were going to the park for school today.

Can you believe we had this two days ago...and it was beautiful...

but it was so nice to go here...

This is a beautiful park east of where we live...aren't we blessed!!! It has a great play area for the children and acres and acres of natural Colorado plains and forest to enjoy. We saw a herd of deers when we got here, found frogs and birds, played in ponds, got lots of good sun and exercise. I call that a GREAT school day! One of the joys of homeschooling is the flexibility of the schedule.

And I feel much better!

Laurel did a great post on how to help our hurting children. Her post told about another mother who said she needed to get a certain book to read. Now, I think that it is wonderful to be able to share our collective experiences and even good books that we read along the way. It is so helpful to read about what other families are doing to help their children who have come home through adoption, adjust to the changes that they are facing, and the hurts that so many of these precious children have.
However, I think that sometimes, our precious children are burdened with "labels" (ADHD, RAD, adopted!, special needs, to name a few...) that are hindering our ability to truly help our children. No doubt, many children have struggles, some very serious. I see these more as a product OF what they have come through, not WHO they are. Labels can so quickly become a part of an identity.
Yesterday I read in Psalm 119:24 "Your testimonies are my delight; they are my conselors". I have bought many books and tried so many things, in other words, I have gone to other counselors with my questions and problems. The LORD showed me that I did not trust that HE could show me how to handle a particular child's earlier trauma, or how to mother to their needs, or how to even just "like" them, when they do certain things that are so controling and difficult for ME. He showed me my know, "God is God, but this author knows attachment disorder, so I better consult the book he wrote."
I really have seen that this is a tempation for me...these "how to" books. And the devil has very effectively used my desire to mother my children well, to keep me from the only BOOK I should have looked to for advise and "how to".
Now, obviously, if I wanted to learn to be a doctor, I would need some special learning outside of the Bible. And certainly, in parenting certain situations, I believe we need to learn things that are helpful from other places when needed.
The biggest thing though that I have noticed these last few months as I have gone to only the LORD with my parenting questions is that He is working in MY heart and HE is showing me what I believe is great advise, especially for one little darlin who has struggled with insecurity from the beginning (it is almost emotionally crippling at times). And HE has assured me that I am the best mother for my children and only He can heal their hearts, however, if I will trust Him, I get to be apart of the beautiful work He wants to do. I just don't think I can find that in any ol' book.
I want to ask you, is there a way we can work together to encourage each other to take our questions, and concerns to the LORD and in prayer, asking Him "how to". Churches have so many Bible Studies and that is great, but what about taking those things that are on our hearts and challange each other to seek and trust the LORD to answer.
These are some more of the thoughts that I have had as I have been asking the LORD how He parents us.

Wordless Wednesday

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

In Africa Tonight

I found this at Kari's .
It is wonderful...please take the time to listen to it.
"In Africa Tonight" was written by Meme Stephens for an orphan in Africa. Meme, Jean Paul Samputu, and the Mizero Children of Rwanda recorded the song in Kigali, Rwanda on Christmas Eve 2006.

I Love Faces

The picture theme this week at I Love Faces is "reflection".
We have a beautiful greenbelt near our home. We love to visit it to hear the birds and enjoy beautiful nature!
I liked this of the children...the wind turned icy and it began to blow really bad right after this picture (which was taken YESTERDAY - yes, in April!!!!) Boy did we run back to the car.

Be sure to visit I Love Faces to see other great pictures and to play along.

Monday, April 27, 2009

From Kalyn-Book Review

Edge of Eternity

“The dark commander marched on, gloating and energized when he saw his enemy stop. As he came at me, my spirit felt trapped in frozen flesh. In what I assumed would be my final seconds of life, I became strangely contemplative about this ancient war I had witnessed for the first time.
The conflicting missions of the two armies seemed to have no fog, no gray, only black and white clarity. I had lived my life in terms of compromise, rule bending, trade offs, concessions, bar gaining, striking deals, finding middle ground. In these two great armies, there was no such thing. Good was good, and evil was evil, and they shared no common ground.
Though racked with pain, my thoughts were lucid and focused. I looked at the little people oblivious to the battle, who seemed to fancy themselves neutral and at peace, making choices so as to maintain dual citizenship in the two warring kingdoms. I was shocked at their ignorance and indifference to the gravity of this ferocious war. Above all, I was shocked that I had been just like them, blind to reality.”
Chapter 7, Edge of Eternity

Edge of Eternity is written by Randy Alcorn, who I respect very much as a writer. He was a pastor for fourteen years and the founder of Eternal Perspective Ministries.
This book captures our fears and doubts in everyday life. We journey along side Nick Seagrave, a soldier who served in Vietnam, married, and has two children. There is just one problem with his life; he has everything materially and is missing everything spiritually. Our story begins with Nick about to through his life away when suddenly everything he is familiar with and everything he knew is thrown out the door. Nick has a choice to make; to follow Gods road or to follow his own. He relives some of his past and sees the consequences of his mistakes. He learns such truths as this ones, “ There is no such thing as a private moment,’ Shad whispered. ‘The whole cosmos is our audience for everything we do in the dark.’”

We see how it truly was our sins that placed Jesus on the cross and drove the nails into his body. Nick literally has the opportunity to drive the nails into the Woodsmans (Jesus) feet. He fights between loving this man and blaming the Woodsman for all the mistakes Nick made in his own life. He seeks to lay blame upon the Woodsman to make it all His fault. But he is also constantly fighting the truth of his mistakes in his own heart.
“The great foot trembled, as if in a spasm, but did not move away from me. For a fleeting moment I wondered why I was punishing the Woodsman for what the beast had done, for what I had done, for what others had done to me. But in the next moment it all seemed perfectly logical. It felt so good to be in control, to determine my own destiny, to choose to do something with my hands, something that made a difference. I was in charge, the Woodsman was at my mercy-and I showed him none.
Another great drop of saltwater fell from above, hitting the bleeding foot and splashing off on me, stinging my eyes. I cursed, then wiped my eyes, blinked hard, grabbed another nail, and started pounding making up for lost time, drawing more blood. The more I swung the hammer the easier it became, the more automatic. Blood of the innocent, shed at my whim and convenience. It wasn’t the first time, I thought, then immediately pushed back nagging memories to the dark corners of my mind. No-what I’d done and what I was doing were reasonable and just. And besides, everyone else was doing it.”
Chapter 10, Edge of Eternity

Will Nick learned to trust the Woodsman? Will you?

I challenge you to read this book and discover the amazing story written within. It is a deep thought provoking book; it will challenge you to look at you life and to place all you trust in our Heavenly Father.

“Come and deliver us,” I heard aliens and strangers and pilgrims cry from the red road. “Take us Home!”
Chapter 23, Edge of Eternity

April in Colorado

It's true....I'm not lying...
I was in my room getting ready for the day, when I heard the sweet little voice of my young daughter sing this song...
"Noel, noel, noel, noel,
born is the King of Israel...."
And after that I heard another song from my sweet Garett....
"Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way..."
Looking outside our door, you can see why we have winter time singing going on. We love is one of the reasons we love Colorado! However, I am ready also for warmer weather. Well, here in Colorado, they say..."wait a day...and the weather will change."

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Eyes To See

We are everyday, grateful for the five acres that we live on here in Colorado. We have lived here for almost 14 years now. Those who know me, know that Colorado has been my love since I was a little girl growing up in Texas. As a young woman, I moved to Colorado. My dad made the statement that he was sad because I would probably find some Colorado guy and stay. And that is what happened.(sorry daddy)
My parents grow so many beautiful plants at their home in Texas. I just don't have the time to do that though, even though I love flowers and plants. So I'm thankful that we can have a "natural landscape" and it still looks beautiful. I also love our little birds out here. So today Daddy built a blue bird box with the darlin's that we will put out in the front meadow area of our property. I can't wait to see our first blue bird family nest!!! And the large shadows in the picture tell you that it is late in the afternoon, which means soon I must bath my little darlin's for church.
I pray for Eyes To See the beauty that the LORD has placed around me. "For you, O LORD, have made me glad by your work; at the works of your hands I sing for joy." Psalms 92:4 God wants to place gladness and joy in our hearts....may we take the time to "see" the works of His Hands.
No matter what we face in our days, He has a little secret joy for us. I would love to hear from you, what do you have around you that is the "work of His hands" that bring joy to your heart?

Boys oh Boys!!!

These three sang at the Easter services for church a few weeks back. So I wanted some pictures before daddy took them to the first service.
Yes, I told the boys to give their sister a sweet kiss...they were all giggling so was funny!

Garett then snuck up behind Landon and, just like the best of Romeo's, dipped Landon back and kissed him. Of course, Landon was laughing so hard and Garett was enjoying being the clown.

And this one...well, I know that he looks adorable...however, but if you look really close into those deep brown eyes, you will see a mischievous, curious, and unstatable need to DO...what ever comes to his two year old mind. Yesterday, his mind told him to draw on the mirrors with chap stick and then to squeeze the pretty blue toothpaste on the pretty cream colored carpet...nice contrast I suppose!
He is definately the one you NEVER let out of your sight if at all possible!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Thankful Thursday

As I write my Thankful Thursday post, I can't help but think of the precious lady that started it...Linny and her family...please click over to her blog if you do not know what is happening with their family and please remember them and pray for them.
So Linny, this is for you and your family....
I am thankful...
-that you belong to the One and Only Lord God who says "Fear not, I am the one who helps you",
-that your family is precious in His sight because He says "you are precious in MY eyes, and honored, and I love you",
-that you know your strength comes from Him and believe when he says to you "be strong and courageous",
-that your family has been chosen by the LORD to be His witnesses as He says "You are my witnesses," declares the LORD, and my servant whom I have chosen" because all Gods people exist to be living proof of His all -sufficiency,
-that as you face the battles against your family, you can firmly say "I am the LORDS" ,
-that you are "chosen and will not be cast off ,
-that the LORD will "tend his flock (your family) like a shepherd: he will gather the lambs in His bosom and gently lead those that are with young."
Most of these verses came form Isaiah. Remembering His love and faithfulness and thankful for that!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When I Was a Little Girl

When I was a little girl there was a section of the sidewalk that dipped down and my brother and I LOVED to play in the water that collected there after a rain.

I'm not an artist, so you get a stick figure...

Well, we don't have sidewalks in the country, but we do have something else that is fun.

So, Joeliana wanted to see the puddle...

What joy and fun!!

Notice that she is wearing the new dress that Caresse and I made...
well, one thing led to another...

ohhh, the fun of a puddle and a stick....

and, like children do, soon pure childhood pleasure was exploding from her body...

I couldn't help it...I just had to let her....

As we were walking back up to the house, she said "That was fun playing in the water."
All I said was "It was fun watching you, baby girl."

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

From Kalyn-Prayer

Today me and the kids went outside and blew some bubbles.
While I was watching the bubbles float away on the breeze, up into the sky; it put me in mind of prayers.

Spoken from our hearts they go up to heaven unseen. Sometimes they are visible some times they are not. Our prayers float through space and time and come before our Father in heaven.

I Love Faces

Theme: "Self-Portrait"
"For both categories, you must take the photo and you must be holding the camera when you take it (you can’t use a tripod or anything else to hold the camera for you.)" So, you can see from the rules, we were suppose to take pictures of ourselves alone and with our children.
WOW. This was hard and I do not like taking pictures of me OR sewing! None the less, in the name of learning...Here are my entries...

For my kid entry....I couldn't even get all my children in the picture, which was fine, because the other 3 were sleeping for nap time.

For my adult entry....
my favorite place in the home!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Attachment-How does God do it?

Do you see my house reflecting in the water drop? Fun huh?

My new blog friend at Transformed from Glory to Glory has been studying the Bible to seek His Word for what she calls a "Christ-Centered" Attachment with our children. There are many books and counselors that talk about the importance of a healthy attachment. In the last dozen or so years, discussions and books about attaching and connecting with our children have become more popular as families have brought children home through adoption. Many of these children have some early childhood trauma and, well, just haven't been parented. I'm glad that so many parents are taking seriously their little ones hearts and overall health.
However, in my heart, and for my family I felt that I needed to really study more from the Bible about attaching to my children and mothering them all with their different needs, hurts, strengths and weaknesses. I want to find out what HE has to say about it all, after all, He is a Father and has brought children home though adoption as well. As Transformed said, I believe, "by faith, that God's word and the love of Christ is sufficient to form a "Christ-Centered" attachment with our children, especially our adopted children."
I was studying from John Ch. 15. 1-12. Please read it if you can. Jesus is talking to the disciples about abiding in Him, the true vine.
In John 15 I see, that part of my purpose as their mother is to FIRST, make sure that I am abiding in Christ. What does that look like? Everyday I must make sure that I am attached to Him! We need to ask ourselves if we are? I need to continue in a daily, personal relationship with Jesus. Trust, prayer and obedience will be a foundational part of that relationship. This is what Jesus models for us in His relationship with His Father. And, as shown in vs. 11, Jesus had great joy in obeying His Father. I need to teach my children to obey us with "joyfulness and gladness of heart." (See Deut. 28:47).
Next, as I have studied and prayed, I felt that the LORD was telling me to "bring them near" (Eph. and another study for another day). After all, abiding in Christ is being NEAR to Him.
I have more thoughts to share, but this is getting long and I need to put little darlin's down for nap.

Something I don't like

It's funny...I don't like to sew...never have. My mom, bless her heart, tried to teach me, but I just don't like stresses me. So the funny part is that Caresse LOVES to sew, and of course, I'm the teacher. I don't like being the sewing teacher either!
HOWEVER, as mothers, we all make sacrifices, so I help her when she FORCES me to. This morning we made this little dress for Joeliana. Yes, it's cute, but my stressed brain says "I'll pay someone else to do the sewing", my mother brain says "stick with teaching Caresse, and soon she can make all the clothes alone and I wont have to pay her".

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Kalyn's book review-DON'T MISS IT

If you missed Kalyn's book review of As We Forgive, please go back and read it. I know I'm her mother, however, I thought she did a WONDERFUL job on the review and you will be moved by what she wrote!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Tag - Your it! Have fun!

Hi everyone. I have been tagged by Jenny at Flutterbye Chronicles to do this meme of "Eights". Jenny did the research of what a Meme is so here is what she wrote..."Memes are conduits of sameness. That is, they're thematic in nature. We're answering the same questions that have no right or wrong answers!" This is my first time to be tagged - so fun!!

Be sure and visit Flutterbye Chronicles...she has a beautiful blog.

8 things I look forward to...
-Our mission trip to Uganda
-going to Texas this summer to play at the lake with family
-finishing another year of homeschooling
-camping this summer with my family
-4 wheeling this summer with my Bronco
-learning more about using my camera and Photoshop Elements
-having a special 16th birthday with Kalyn
-swimming with the children

8 things I did yesterday...
-got children up, dressed and fed the 1st meal of the day
-Bible time with the children
-did school with 5 children
-kept the other four busy playing
-listened (and intervened when necessary) to children eat 2nd meal of day while I caught up on computer things
-layed with little darlin's for nap while I read my book and studied the Bible
-walk/ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes
-fed children 3rd meal of day (they do LOTS of eating!!)

8 things I wish I could do...
-sing well...I have never been able to sing "really good" (I laughed when I looked back at yours Jenny, I didn't remember that you had put that - LOL)
-understand Photoshop Elements better mother and dad were/are so artistic...
-help more people in Africa
-go on a trip to Alaska with my parents (and my husband could come along to, LOL)
-still have never para sailed
-have a newborn again
-see some of the wonders of the world

8 shows I watch...
(We really don't watch much TV so I may have to improvise...)
-Dancing with the Stars
-America's Funniest Home Videos
-Extreme Makeover - Home Edition
favorite movies...
-Mr. and Mrs. Smith
-The Pink Panther

8 people I tag...
-Beth @
-Amy @
-Sarah @
-Joy @
-Jodi @
-Joyful Mom @
-Shawnda @
-Trina @

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Thankful Thursday

Another Thursday to remember the things that make my days sweet!
I am thankful for...
-sons and daughters who love each other,
-that I can educate our children at home,
-that sweet friends sent us money to help support us for our mission trip to Uganda
-the Bible...I am really enjoying some deeper studying right now,
-and as Jodi said, I am thankful for leftovers,
-and for cute little fingers on babies

-and the way our puppy lays on his tummy with his back legs always makes me laugh,
-for Chicken Pot Pie for supper....I really like a good Chicken Pot Pie,
-lightning...I LOVE a good storm!
I pray you are each having a wonderful day and evening!

From Kalyn-Book Review

Here is a book review that I have written about a book called As We Forgive.

“The gash across the face of Emmanuel Mahuro, a seventeen year old Rwandan native, is no longer a open wound. Today, like a jagged boundary line across map, a scar juts down the plateau of his forehead, across the bridge of his nose, and up the slope of his right cheek. It is impossible to look into Emmanuel's eye's without seeing this deep cut, a mark of division etched across his face-and the face of Rwanda-fifteen years after the genocide.

My first reaction to such scars is to avert my eye's. But to look away from Emmanuel's scars is to look away from him. Strangely, as my eye's adjust to Emmanuel's face, there is an impulse, not to recoil, but to follow the line of the scar across his skin.

Emmanuel’s scar testifies to two realities. It is a witness to the human capacity for evil. To look at it is to hear it scream the brutality of an April that aches in the memory of an entire people. Yet his scar testifies to another truth: the stunning capacity of humans to heal from the unthinkable. To trace that scar is to discover the hope of a people who, despite losing everything, are finding a way to forge a common future for Rwanda.

Rwanda’s wounds, like Emmanuel’s, are agonizingly deep.Today, they are being opened afresh as tens of thousands of killers are released from prison to return to the hills where they hunted down and killed former neighbors, friends, and classmates. In the everyday business of life-purchasing corrugated metal for roofing, burying bananas in the ground to make urwagwa, and hauling harvested sorghum to the market-survivors commonly meet the eyes of people who shattered their former lives. How can they live together? This is not a philosophical question, but a practical one that confronts the Rwandans daily.”
Prelude, From AS WE FORGIVE

As We Forgive was written by Catherine Claire Larson and inspired by the award winning film also called As We Forgive. This book goes through stories of people who have survived the Rwanda genocide. The killing of Tutsi's in Rwanda began after the assassination of President Juvenal Habyarimana. President Juvenal Habyarimana's plane was shot down near Kigali International Airport on April 6, 1994. Over the course of approximately 100 days, from the assassination of Juvenal Habyarimana on April 6, up until mid July, at least 500,000 people were killed. Most estimates indicate a death toll between 800,000 and 1,000,000, which could be as high as 20% of the total Rwanda population.

AS WE FORGIVE tells the story of only a handful of people from the thousands of stories just waiting to be told. It tells not only about the victims and their struggles but also about the killers and how each one had to overcome and find forgiveness in God. This story tells about the victims struggle to forgive people who had destroyed their lives and everything they hold dear. And of the killers struggle to face the victims and confess.

“I FORGIVE YOU,” said Rosaria softly. “if you have sincerely confessed your sin before God and truly changed, then I forgive you.”
Saveri searched for words, opened his mouth to speak them, but none came, only tears of relief.
“How can I refuse's to forgive you when I did not make you?” Your crime”-she paused, forming her thoughts carefully-“your crime was against God, who created the people you killed.”
Saveri had been prepared for many things, but not this. He had been at the meetings as other victims vented their rage against the killers at their confessions. He had even seen some leave and refuse to return after meeting the ones who had harmed their families. Believing that even death was not an adequate punishment for his wrongs, Saveri had braced himself for retribution, insults, anger, even silence, but not this.
“Thank you,” he stammered, wondering if he had truly heard her right or was in some strange kind of dream. “I don’t deserve this. I’m so sorry. Thank you.”
Ripening, From AS WE FORGIVE

Forgiveness is possible, as the touching scene you just read shows. Forgiveness is something we all need and can only give with God's strength. This book also shows us that healing is possible even after the unimaginable.

Why would I do a book report about the Rwandan genocide?
Because even though I don't live in Rwanda the stories from the Rwandan genocide deserve to be heard. The events that happened there are heart wrenching and it is easy to turn our eyes away from it. Through the Rwandan genocide we have seen how evil and hatred filled people can be. But we have also seen the power of forgiveness, forgiveness of others and forgiveness of ones self.

Why should you read this book?
This book shows how God is moving in Rwanda. Victims and killers finding forgiveness together and are learning to live once again with each other. A country ravaged by a blood thirsty slaughter slowly finding peace and love. This book shows the power of Forgiveness and Healing like no other. Each story will bring tears to your eyes as your read these people's defeats; but most importantly their Victories.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009


We are suppose to have a Major snow storm in our area by tomorrow. The children are "overflowing" with cooped up energy and really for some warm weather. Well, I decided to splurge for a few new toys to get us through more snowy days...
musical instruments for the younger ones...
hool-a-hoops for the older ones...

a fun glitter ball, just because it was cool...

and bubbles. We might have to play with the bubbles in the bath tub since the garage will be to cold. I'm not sure if I can get 8 children in a bathtub though.

Wordless Wednesday

Monday, April 13, 2009

The Cry of My Heart today

"Father God, please show me how to use Scripture, which I confess and believe is breathed out by God and profitable, to teach, reprove, correct, and train my children in righteousness (2 Tim. 3:16) to equip my children for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ." (Eph. 4:12)
I am feeling frustrated with some parenting issues right now...especially with the littlest ones. It seems that they are almost constantly in trouble, tattle tailing, disobeying, arguing and of course predictably being "childish". I am determined (as I wrote about earlier), to find the answers not from books, but from God, through prayer and the Bible. I do feel like I am rediscovering some TRUTHS and being encouraged with different Scriptures and know that I need His wisdom and help and know that he will send that...HOWEVER, after correcting these little darlin's for HOURS on end (hours x four children, not to mention the others and house work=?)...I begin to wonder what I need to change or do different; how to Biblically handle some of the heart issues and not "grow weary" in doing this precious job of mothering.
Just wanted to share my heart a little...
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